.my heart hurts because it's full of words i won't ever dare to say i miss her and that chaos in her head. it's not like she's ever let me see it, i can only catch a glimpse of that brilliance sometimes... she's so beautiful, because of her mind, it's a fucking universe and it's more fascinating that the real one. and i just don't know what to do, still don't know. i'm so jealous when she talks to someone else, but i can't talk to her myself, i forget all the words, and she almost never talks. why? i know how perfect her mind is and i want to see it, and she doesn't let me! it's driving me mad, i just i don't know what to do i don't even know what i feel anymore.